Yeah, I know I said I'll be writing book reflections but I got caught up with numerous changes in my jobs. Yeah, JOBS. And in 3 weeks I will be giving up one of them to concentrate on the other. Got word that I will be taking another exam, so I need time to review...again. How many times do I have to tell myself "I am done" with exams. Though it's the accepted norm, it does not measure anyone's capability to handle their job. They may know the written answers but how they perform at work will never be quantified through a series of questions in black and white.
I don't get sad when I leave a workplace. I move on in that area pretty quickly. I used to be happy saying good-bye to a career. I get excited knowing I have a few weeks to chill, read, write, watch tv, and reflect. They say "Find a job that you really like and you never have to work a day in your life." Well, mine's writing and reading and bumming. Is there a job that pays you for that? A job that pays enough for you to live comfortably or at least, decently. I'm not a fiction writer (I hope I am) so being a bestselling author is out of the question. The job I am about to leave is something I enjoy. Though it has its usual issues - bosses, unfair employment practices, lazy coworkers, and office politics - I like the nature of the job itself. It pays better than my other jobs as well. I believe I can do this job in the next 5 years and not get bored. But all good things must come to an end. And it will end in 19 days.And for the first time, it makes me emotional, sorrowful.
I am going back full-time to a profession that doesn't pay enough to put your kids to school. Not in this country at least. Unless you work in the government sector. It's okay, I guess. I should've taken an MS degree/units back in 2011 before I got pregnant so I can work in research laboratories. It's the reason I took up the course anyway. I wanted to work for WHO or the CDC. Regardless of the pay, I wanted to be out there unraveling science! Discovering new bacteria, fungi, viruses, parasites (my fave!) and combating them. What a way to live, I thought back then.
Regardless of where I may end up or what the future brings, I will always go back to my first love. Writing.
I am going back full-time to a profession that doesn't pay enough to put your kids to school. Not in this country at least. Unless you work in the government sector. It's okay, I guess. I should've taken an MS degree/units back in 2011 before I got pregnant so I can work in research laboratories. It's the reason I took up the course anyway. I wanted to work for WHO or the CDC. Regardless of the pay, I wanted to be out there unraveling science! Discovering new bacteria, fungi, viruses, parasites (my fave!) and combating them. What a way to live, I thought back then.
Regardless of where I may end up or what the future brings, I will always go back to my first love. Writing.
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